Rainy Days

So over here it is one of those rainy days which I always take as "thinking days". Basically, when these days come around I always acknowledge how I am not in the place I want to be, not in regards to location. I know 100% that I am supposed to be in Cincinnati. But I mean in other ways. I am not in the place where I want to be in my faith, my state of mind. But before you know it, the sun comes out tomorrow and the thoughts go to the back of my mind until the next rainy day. But I want to change this. This rainy day is one where I want to actually get an action plan together, how I can better myself and get a grasp of who I actually am. The college years are generally years where we are trying to find ourselves and I am pretty sure I could be top of that list. Sometimes I grind myself down and try to actually think about who I am, what I stand for, whats my identity in Christ? And I know I am not alone in all of this. I want to up my game and the teaching on Andy Stanley have reinforced a lot of things for me. The most important thing which I have taken from it is; Am I working on bettering myself?

The short answer? Not as much as I should be. 

So being tired with myself I am taking a year to find myself. To get a grasp of who I want to be, a year to solely focus on God, my dreams, and the woman I want to be in Christ. I'm sick of worrying who I think people want me to be, being a people pleaser is a total waste of time. And no matter how hard you try you will never please everyone. I get so worried about my future which comes at the detriment to my present. I live so much in the future that my present fails me daily. So my plan of action? I am off dating, for a year in the hope that I can discover who I am, so I can make myself into a woman totally after Gods own heart because I know that that is going to get me so much farther than anything else. You see, if I do this there is no way I could ever waste my time doing it or regret doing it. I'll be keeping you updated on my journey, as I become more open to letting God use me in whichever way he desires. But I need to solely focus, to not lose sight of why I am here and be open to Gods time. I am so excited to see how God is going to work in me and through me.